when you fall in love

when you fall, o how you fall
without restraint
without fear or caution
the dream couldn't be taint

and he was your gravity
pulling you down full force
you fell so dizzyingly fast
no time to think or feel remorse

and when you hit the ground
you broke- shattering into pieces
gone are all the dreams with him
gone the hopes and wishes

then tears fell like rain
dissolved each broken shard
till all the pieces became
once again, a whole heart

cause broken hearts will mend
though we fall over and over again
and as much as the next one might hurt
you're willing to brave the pain

delusions

in a world of blinding fluorescent lights
i was drowning in a sea of gray faces
pushed and shoved around without direction
only silence fills the empty spaces

frantically reaching out, i screamed your name
but my voice was drowned out by the storm
and though you're just a beautiful delusion
even the jealous wind snatched away your form

the rain chills me to my bones but still
i embraced it, gladly let it drench my skin
cause it's the only way to hide my tears
and camouflage the breaking heart within

frantically reaching out, i screamed in pain
but my voice was drowned out by the storm
and though love is just a beautiful illusion
the dreamer wakes and the magic is gone

how could they know?

painted pictures on the wall
hang morbidly down the empty hall
their eyes watched me as i go
forever silent with the secrets they know

their stare could not slow my stride
laments of old ghosts, i do not abide
i stopped at the door with flowers
it stood out so brightly among the others

i could hear her inside, breathing slow
sleeping soundly, she couldn't possibly know
i saw her face, so very young
so full of hopes, her story barely begun

sleeping peacefully without a stir
oblivious to laments of old ghosts getting louder
the morning came as always before
another normal day but with something more

a scream resonates through the hall
hurried feet ran past pictures on the wall
behind the door with painted flowers
around the bed a sad family gathers

so young, they couldn't possibly know
that it was her time to go

so sorry....

every sign and logic said 'no'
so this feeling has to go
for it i shall shed a tear
'goodbye my sweet dear.'

i'm so sorry we had no chance to be.
i'm sure we would've been so happy
if i've disapponted you in anyway
for your forgiveness i pray

but you are much too important to me
i won't gamble in something so risky
what we have now is pure and true
i don't want to taint this friendship with you

all i can say now is i'm so very sorry
but know that i feel for you dearly
you would have been so perfect
but alas life dealt us this cruel trick....

:'(

the reflected world

he fell into the Reflected World

through a field of indigo lights

that bounced off silver clouds

birthing melancholy in flight

i saw him as he fell
tried to reach but he was too far
saw him drown in somnolence
curled up beneath a star

her face haunts him still
etched behind his dark eyes
forever captured in sepia
still smiling through those lies

sorrow bled through dark eyes
bursting into a million galaxies
sparkling like sand in the sun
scattered by Zephyrus' breeze

i stood enthralled and waiting
till Apollo's light grew dim
he was trapped in the Reflected World
and i could not follow him...

lesson learnt

my angels were demons in diguise
and once more i fell for their lies
their greedy claws have picked me apart
all save for my weak pathetic heart

they deemed it unworthy to take
too broken, too scarred, too mangled to take
it may be pathetic and weak but it is my own
it is the only heart i've ever known

but this lesson has thought me well
so i thank my little demons from hell
to help open my eyes and see
the only person i can count on is me

hoping

yes, still here
still childishly hoping
this hoping child
heart broken but unwavering

someone take me away
far from this place
take my hand, hold tight
lead my back to grace

hail Mary, pity this lost one
don't let her heart turn to stone
save her, save her please
don't leave me alone...

(just saying i still believe in love out there but have to open my eyes wider next time...)

king of...

give me something real to hold
something more than this shadow in my heart
give me truth not apparations of lies
otherwise have my life depart

it's too tiresome coming out lost
everytime in this unending struggle
for what cause? what mysterious holy end?
do i continue on in this torturous battle?

wear that golden crown of garnet gems
made of dried bloody tears
each one sparkles with such sorrow
my royal crown of disappointment and fears

but why is it i still look to the sky
hoping for a glimmer of the True
buried behind clouds of wailing souls
once the believer forever the believing fool...

too invincible to die

i've never feared Hades
nor his three-headed hounds
my loyalty lies with Zephyrus
whose spirit you cannot bound

floating down river on our backs
we stared dreamy-eyed at the sky
in the distance we hear Pan's lute
feeling too invincible to die

forget-me-nots

whispered prayers in the wind
hope that it'll carry my voice to you
staring at the looking glass
but i can never get through

hold me like you'll break me
it doesn't matter if you do
steal my breath and life
and take it into you

a cold broken corpse
amongst a field of forget-me-nots
blank eyes to the darkening skies
even in death they sought
(for your face, they sought...)