I LUV YOU

one of my friends told me to write whatever i feel...

this is how i feel..

thank you for being there
for sharing my happiness and joy
for sharing my sorrow and pain
thank you for lifting me up when i'm down
for all the good times and memories

now i want to tell you i can do the same
when you're sad, my shoulder is here
when you are happy, i will be near
when you are stressed, you can share my plastic bag ^^
when you are in pain, i can organise a burning session anytime

to my friends and darlinks...
I LUV YOU!!

lesson learnt

my angels were demons in diguise
and once more i fell for their lies
their greedy claws have picked me apart
all save for my weak pathetic heart

they deemed it unworthy to take
too broken, too scarred, too mangled to take
it may be pathetic and weak but it is my own
it is the only heart i've ever known

but this lesson has thought me well
so i thank my little demons from hell
to help open my eyes and see
the only person i can count on is me

hoping

yes, still here
still childishly hoping
this hoping child
heart broken but unwavering

someone take me away
far from this place
take my hand, hold tight
lead my back to grace

hail Mary, pity this lost one
don't let her heart turn to stone
save her, save her please
don't leave me alone...

(just saying i still believe in love out there but have to open my eyes wider next time...)

king of...

give me something real to hold
something more than this shadow in my heart
give me truth not apparations of lies
otherwise have my life depart

it's too tiresome coming out lost
everytime in this unending struggle
for what cause? what mysterious holy end?
do i continue on in this torturous battle?

wear that golden crown of garnet gems
made of dried bloody tears
each one sparkles with such sorrow
my royal crown of disappointment and fears

but why is it i still look to the sky
hoping for a glimmer of the True
buried behind clouds of wailing souls
once the believer forever the believing fool...

orpheus

orpheus was the greek god of music. it was said that with his lyre and singing, he could charm every living thing on the planet. orpheus had a wife named eurydice whom he loved above all else.

then one day as eurydice was out picking flowers, she ran into aristaeus who was captivated by her beauty and immediately became obsessive of her. eurydice ran from aristaeus but the aristaeus would not give up and chased after her. in their chase, eurydice accidentally stepped into a nest of snakes and was bitten. the bite proved fatal and eurydice die soon after.

devastated by the death of eurydice, orpheus played such sad songs and sang so mournfully that all the gods wept. the gods took pity on orpheus and advised him to go to the underworld to persuade hades to return eurydice's soul. orpheus' music touched even the stone heart of hades and the god of the underworld agreed to release eurydice under one condition : orpheus must walk in front of eurydice and never look back until they've both left the underworld.

but as they pair began their journey, orpheus began to worry if it was trully his eurydice walking behind him or if it was hades' trick. they were almost at the surface but orpheus could not stand anymore and turned to greet his wife. as soon as orpheus saw eurydice's face, she said goodbye to her husband forever and vanished...

outing with my darlinks ^^

went out to play with agatha, sarah, jovi, cyrus and zidane today ^^.
reached college at about ten. then me and jo started the burning session first cause he couldn't resist. that boy prepared everything. lighter, spirit, screwdriver, a burning can and even paper cut outs of 'siew yan'.

cyrus finally reached with our new long-haired friend zidane. burning session became crazy after that. haha. everything feels so much better after that. flush out all the bad memories ;)

ah! today i had sakae sushi for the first time ^^. agatha was right, the froggie shoes are cute ^^. after lunch we visited petronas sains. i haven't been there for a very very long time. haha cyrus got frightened by a rapping t-rex 3 TIMES ^^ haha. then there was this hurricane machine. jo wanted to bring it home as a giant dryer. haha

all in all, today can be summed up in one word...AWESOME!!

too invincible to die

i've never feared Hades
nor his three-headed hounds
my loyalty lies with Zephyrus
whose spirit you cannot bound

floating down river on our backs
we stared dreamy-eyed at the sky
in the distance we hear Pan's lute
feeling too invincible to die

forget-me-nots

whispered prayers in the wind
hope that it'll carry my voice to you
staring at the looking glass
but i can never get through

hold me like you'll break me
it doesn't matter if you do
steal my breath and life
and take it into you

a cold broken corpse
amongst a field of forget-me-nots
blank eyes to the darkening skies
even in death they sought
(for your face, they sought...)